Track 32: Sickness Ain't Kind & Neither Is Everything Else

Alright....so if you're wondering where the fuck I've been....I don't care because nobody has been asking that question...so let's get to it....SHALL WE?!

The only reason I haven't been blogging here is because I've been blogging more on this forum I've join and I'm up to almost thirty entries on there. But hopefully that will all change with the upcoming New Year. I got some plans that I'm hoping to stick with into 2010.

Hopefully 2010 will be a better year because frankly 2009 has been a shitty SHITTY year!! I mean it started out good but then as soon as June hit that's when all the shit hit the fan. But anyways here's hoping... Off that, I've finally finished my third semester which was worst than my last semester but I don't wanna think about all that right now because all I want is my sleep back....By the way, how do you like the new layout of the blog? Yes, I'm doing the tribute to the King Of Pop during the BAD Era so WHOO on that lol....

As of lately, I have been battling a bad cold since Tuesday and it didn't help that I had two finals on Wednesday but I got through them both and I went home, finished up some remaining homework, took two shots of NyQuil and passed the fuck out. Thursday, I spent the day in bed hoping to get over this damn cold and then I hear the doorbell....but think nothing of it until....I remembered that my mom was expecting a big package that is supposed to be a gift for my dad on Christmas was suppose to be coming in soon so I get up to check it out and encounter my dad who checks on how I'm feeling and tells me to take some more medicine and in turn I ask him to gimme some tomato soup. So while he's off doing that I go to check on the two packages that have arrived and I was right one of them was HUGE and thick and the other was a smaller baggy most likely something for my brother I'd have to wrap up later...I look at the big box and I FREAKED OUT!!! There is a frickin' Michael Jackson Opus sitting in my living room....The MJ Opus is a book that MJ had been working on before he had passed and the people he was working with decided to finish it and release it as an expensive tribute. I honestly was not expect I would actually get one since it was so expensive but I am truly grateful and still shocked as hell....So for the rest of the day I've kept my excitement to myself. Later on that night, I saw Santa Claus riding on a firetruck which brings me to the conclusion that SANTA IS A FIREMAN!!

(Anyways, I just realized that I have severe ADD when it comes to posting blogs....lol)

So Friday, nothing really to highlight except that my mother calls me up while I'm in bed recovery and she tells me she has a prize for me IF I do something...so she tells me to clean the kitchen and kick my dad out of bed so I can make it up. So I do all of that as soon as I get off the phone with her because she is SOOO adamant about this being done. So she gets home later on and I'm more excited for the pizza because I'm hungry but after eating my mom presents me with a magazine that I have been meaning to buy but it's either missing or I never have any money for it. It's an MJ magazine that also functions as a calender but really like I wanna mark up a pretty magazine with that hahah....But when I told her that it was a calender as well she became all crestfallen and sad and looked at the presents which told me the third thing I'm most likely getting which is a MJ calender but I just told her that I wasn't gonna use it as a calender lol. But aside from that nothing else except it also started snowing too...YAY!

Today, Saturday wasn't eventful either due to the fact that we're snowed in but I had an awesome dream that involved one of the 3T boys or Tito Jackson's sons but I won't go into because frankly kids could be on Blogger so nyah....but otherwise I woke up to a winter wonderland and took some pictures of it when it was at barely a foot of snow. Right now it's looking to go to two feet so that's something to be happy about lol...and Christmas is looking to be a white one too. So instead I spent the day straightening up my room so I could make some room for the new stuff from Christmas to put it and then my mom made me wrap some more presents for her friend and she kept telling me that I will be compensated quite nicely for my skills. Maybe with a new certain book...that's hiding under her bed lol...Here's to a great Christmas coming up in a few more days...That's basically all I gotta say so umm yeah I'm gonna go and watch some Rocky VI, put away my clothes and count the days until Christmas so yeah.....BYEE!!!

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 31: Food For Headphones' Brain...Oh How Depression Looms...

So...it's been four months going on five months since we've lost Michael and I feel I'm recovering but I have my days where I'm just a walking shell...I don't talk unless spoken to and basically just keep to myself. All I ask...why him of all people? I'm happy yes....but that's what they want to see but it's not what I feel...So, I have this reoccurring dream/thought that eating away at my mind and as I write about it...it brings me to tears. So, when I go through my days there ain't no sunshine when Michael is gone and even when the sun is shining at it's brightest it's still dark in my eyes.

Anyways, in my thoughts I'm walking through a cemetery...graves are lining my paths it's foggy and there's a slight mist. Why do I have to keep seeing this place? You brought me here why? Just to show me what will never be? I come upon the first grave and there is a girl who is 15 sitting there sobbing for her lost. I kneel beside her and we strike up a conversation. 'It's not fair...why did God have to take my uncle of all people?' She continues to cry out and I offer my an answer. Sometimes when a person completes their mission....they're called back to God. The girl looks at me with her tear stained face...'What about when their lives are cut short by the hands of another...someone who he thought was his brother? The real life Cain & Abel. She goes silent and I get up and start walking again then I hear. He was a man...who had once knew nothing but crime until one day he broke the silence with the sounds of chains at his mother's funeral before he's goes off to prison. Afterwards, he becomes a pastor and preaches the word of God. He wasn't even given a chance to fight to survive. If he wasn't even given a chance then how can I have faith in God again. With that she's gone. The date was April 11, 2006...

I continue along the path until I come upon another grave. This time there was another girl who was 18 at the grave. This time she's wearing a uniform...a police uniform with no emotion on her face. She stands there like a soldier at attention. She hears me and acknowledges me and nothing more. I stand next to her and strike up a conversation. 'This man...died in the line of duty and yet no recognition...' But he was a man who died for protecting those who couldn't protect themselves and doing what he loved. 'Yes, he did but his death was overshadowed by the death of his suspected killer by the supposed hands of his own.' I felt crushed because this man also acted as a mentor towards me and a few others whom we're so close to. I broke the news to my closest friend who had no way of finding out so I thought it was best to tell him. He was the closest to him but he's wasn't here to pay proper respect to his mentor. I attended his funeral not just for myself but for him as well. But he brought together a community who honored and were touched by his heroics. She looked at me with a small smile and for that I thank him. She hands me something and walks off but now without saying 'Rest In Peace Sergeant' and with that she was gone. I look at my hand and see a police officer's sergeant chevrons. The date was June 27, 2008.

I continue walking until I come upon one final grave site until I'm finally able to exit. At this site sits a little girl no older than 10 clawing at the dirt with tears falling fast and freely and some small dirt smudges on her small face. 'YOU CAN'T BE GONE!!' she screams repeatedly. I run to her and grad her and try to console her. She grabs at my shirt and continues to sob loudly trying to figure why she lost him. 'YOU SHOULD STILL BE HERE!!' For this I have no words and in fact I felt I've lost my voice. I just continue to listen to the girl sob by now she's down to a quiet sob as she returns to her spot. 'You even sang it in your song...whisper three words and I'll come running......She barely whispers 'Michael, come back. I still don't speak...I just walk to the girl, kneel down and hold her as she keeps sobbing....the day was June 25, 2009.

These three girls are myself...at the ages I've lost the people I loved and respected most. The one who speaks to them is also myself representing those who try to console me with their hollow words...words that seem so general now. With each I was able to help I was able to move on until I was able to leave the cemetery. But when I stopped at the ten year child I felt loss...I was 10 going on 11 when I became a fan of MJ and when I found at he died I listened to 'You Are Not Alone' and that opened the wounds and I reverted to my 10 year old self who was that hardcore fan. He died when I was 18 and turned 19 on his three month anniversary. I was able to recover from losing my uncle and my mentor but who can console me after losing MJ...I take each day with one step and hopefully I will think of those three with nothing more than a smile. I may grieve more for MJ but I don't love my uncle any less and I respect my mentor so much more for being willing to give his life up. Is there really such a thing as a time limit on the grieving process...

Love & Peace

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 30: We'll Be Moonwalkin'

How ya be my lovely Blogger?

'Tis I, your bad-ass...random-ass....soaked ass Headphones, here to bring one of my random rambling of a blog because frankly I ain't got better shit to do then just sit here on the computer and look at videos of Michael Jackson's old performances which are still great today, um....cats fighting then watching another vomit, turtles having sex which is fuckin' hilarious by the way (This is what I do while you're at work lol and yes I did actually watched these videos). So let's get this shit crackin' SHALL WE?!

First off, I'm not in a good mood because I'm still pissed at the 86 Metro bus for straight leaving my ass and duex it's very cold, deary and wet outside cause it's raining and it's October and it's Fall but it feels like Winter. So cold and rain and me do not mix well today....no no no...but the silver lining in all this inanity of it all is that I finally got my little fangirlish hands on Michael Jackson's one and only 1988 auto-biography 'Moonwalk' which was re released on Tuesday in a special 2009 edition which feature a new foreword by founder of Motown Records Berry Gordy. I almost thought I wouldn't have been able to get it because I thought I'd be a nickel short of the price but thankfully my giftcard my mom gave me for my birthday (THANKS MOM YOU JUST BOUGHT ME $100 WORTH OF MJ BOOKS LMAO) had enough to cover the change and I had enough to cover the remaining amount so yes I am proud owner of said book lol...

Now, as of right now I'm currently killing time in my school's computer lab because frankly I'm in no mood to walk through the rain and wait for a bus so I'll take a later one because this is how much I love my blog...so I thought I should update it once in a while I mean just because Miss Cougar can go on hiatus doesn't this spic should lol j/k j/k j/k....I just win I had money for food ;_; lol....Although this is perfect weather to be listening to 'Stranger in Moscow' -le sigh-

Anyways, I want to write that I found out that this guy who worked at my mom's job had died from I think a rare form of Lupus so condolences to his family. This guy was short little Asian man like half my height (not being racial speaking the truth) and he was just plain adorable lol and I can't believe he's gone I mean I was sad when he quit but to hear he died is just one big plain ouch. Also Al Martino from The Godfather who sings "Speak Softly" which is one of my favorite song died two days ago at the ripe old age of 82 so Al you'll be missed by this chick....

This brings me to what's been buggin' me these past weeks even months. Why can't a person just die in peace overall...I'm not wishing death on anybody I'm posing a rhetorical question. But I mean no matter what the circumstances are surrounding their death whether it be suicide, cancer, drug O.D., or whatever...can't they just pass on and be done with...For the pass 3-4 months I felt as though I haven't been able to properly mourn MJ's death because the media is constantly talking about it and sometimes without fair views...Instead of just being sad I keep getting angry because of the media's way of reporting on anything Michael it then reaches the fans and in turn the fans go crazy with angry and sometimes I feel some of them are blind to the reality of it all...People are coming out of the woodwork releasing books on MJ and some are being labeled traitors and money making scumbags, the upcoming "This Is It" is being boycotted by some being labeled as a way to make money of his name, conspiracy after conspiracy as to what really killed MJ, and so on and so forth...

Here's my take on this whole situation

On MJ-related literature: Half of these people will write anything that can keep the readers attention and some (not all) will say they did research, they investigated, they interviewed said witnesses. Case & Point, Ian Halperin wrote a book that was released a week or so after Michael had passed and it made some very huge claims such as Michael was gay and used women as a cover, the kids aren't really his, he used hard-core drugs, and of course no book on MJ is ever completed without the infamous molestation trials. I was like some a person downright said I WILL NOT BUY THIS BOOK!! NO WAY IT IS PURE BULLSHIT!! I WON'T GIVE A DIME TO THIS MAN!! But of course I relented and got the book and I felt guilty for reading this book but as I read through it I realized something...I was right this book was pure bullshit lol...but the point is that I read a book that had huge claim but nothing really solid to back it up and here's my message. A person can write a horrible book but it is up to you as the reader to formulate your own conclusion. Going into a book you need to make sure that you read any book about MJ with an open mind because no matter what they throw at you...even if it sounds plausible you don't believe it unless you hear it from the man himself and now that he's gone we'll never some of the answers but the authors sure as hell can try to and answer...

Making Money Off of MJ's Name: Do some people realized that when you buy MJ merchandise that has been approved by the estate that some of the money goes to HIS estate which means to HIS kids. So to boycott the "This Is It" or any other product is just non-sense because you'll actually be denying the estate money which turn no money for his kids or for the charities. And for what some self-satisfying feeling that you didn't allow the corporates to sway you into buying their money making products because they're exploiting MJ's name...I'm not defending the corporates and I'm not using the kids to ensue guilt I'm merely just being realistic. This is like a double edge sword if a person releases anything of MJ we don't know what they'll gain out of it they're labeled a 'money making scumbags' but nothing is released no money goes to the estate. I admit I'm very disappointed in SONY for how they're treating MJ's music and I would love to see MJ's fan take that eyesore down to the ground.

Conspiracy: We can all hope and pray and do dark magic and give anything to have MJ back alive but unfortunately fate is a cruel bitch. As we all know his death was labeled a homicide and the primary target of focus is Dr. Conrad Murray who was with him the day he died. To me that is who I blame for MJ's death...he was there in that room and he was the one who stuck the drip in his arm and he is the one I want punished. But I hear these people giving us elaborate conspiracies that involved people that we're out to lay there hands on MJ's money and they actually believed this like it's the holy word and label people who want to deny it or challenge it as not being a true fan. Just because I don't want to believe does not give you the right to challenge me on whether I am a true fan or not because they is no ten commandments to follow to make you a so call true fan. I loved MJ with all my heart but I am a person who wants facts and hard evidence. Show me a video or audio of these people actually talking about killing MJ but it is not a crime just to say I WANT TO KILL MICHAEL JACKSON! If there is evidence of a plot to kill him then it is labeled a crime. All these conspiracies are no better than if you had written something for the tabloids and sold it for millions.

I've just had enough with all the questions about his death. I want him to be at peace, I want his children to be able to look at their father the way they always seen him, I want him to be remembered for being the greatest star in the world. Unfortunately with the way things are today...it's be a while before I'll be able to think of you Michael and just smile and laugh...

Well, I'm done with my ranting and again this is my take on the issues and my opinions which I am entitled to and should not be considered as me trying to pass off as facts. Some of what I say could be wrong. I'm sorry to be this way lol must be the weather but anyways I've finished in the nick of time since I have to go and I managed to finished a blog in the allotted time OMG I'm so proud lol. So, now I'm off to go home, get warm and make some soup for me to enjoy while I read my books. I'll end my song here and take my bow...so until next time my loves...Farewell, so long, adios, adieu, sayonara.....

Love & Peace
~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 29: Oh The Randomosity of Halloween!

*staring at profile pic of MJ goodness*OH! I didn't see y'all there....What is good my lovely Blogger! 'Tis I, Headphones, back again double the random, double the Spanish (for your info books, I'm Mexican-American just a little fun fact for ya), double the spaziness. I'm here to bring you joy and laughter because frankly I ain't got nothing to complain about really.....yet....Alright so anyways I'm bouncing around and going Off The Wall and really I have no clue I dunno guess it must be the Life cereal (MMM CINNAMON GOODINESS) but these past days were good.

Saturday, I went to the movies with my dad to see that Michael Moore Documentary Capitalism: A Love Story. It actually wasn't that bad...it was eye-opening but I kept getting lost lol and for any Family Guy fans in here it's like this....While watching the movie I kept hearing people laugh at some of the references Michael Moore had made and I thought "this is just like the season primere episode of Family Guy when Brian and Stewie are stuck in that Washington Post comic and Brian is the only one laughing at it....Stewie has it right....S.....T....F....U! lolSo anyways afterwards we went SHOPPING!!! at the grocery store bleh! Not fun....what is fun is going to the mall down the road which is housed to Books-A-Million and f.y.e (For the some who don't know these place it's like a low scale version of Borders or Barnes & Noble or any shop that is a primary bookstore lol and f.y.e is like a low scale Best Buy lol). So freshly strapped with a gift card to the bookstore I set foot into it and set off to find me some MJ....which I did find....I managed to pick me up the Hardcover Versions of the LIFE and PEOPLE tribute magazines to MJ which is awesome and I found a really nice paperback tribute by Whitman it's called MICHAEL JACKSON: The World Says Good-Bye To The King of Pop and it's basically a book of quotes from all the celebrities in the music industry as well as a few fans from all over the world....and it has some beautiful pictures too...last but not least I also found the book by Bruce Swedien "In The Studio with Michael Jackson which I can't wait to read after I've finish Randy T.'s book. So after I make the purchased the woman ringing me up state of course the obvious....you must be a Michael Jackson fan which of course I said yeah that's me...lol and she was really cool she told me about the new book by the Rhabbi and how that may be the only book that isn't out to trash MJ's image unlike others....like I told her about the Unmasked book and she was like "when I saw I was like no...." then of course the molestation cases came up and she stated that she was ashamed of the families for taking the money because if she was the parent and he DID do it she'd want to see him behind bars. I agreed with her...don't scold her because she's entitled to her own opinion and like her if our kids were molested we'd want the offender behind bars even if he is famous....we can't let fame blind justice.....but that's all I got to say really....

Getting back to the title of this blog...I'm on a mission to create MJ's Smooth Criminal outfit for Halloween but I've decided to turn it into something new so I'm taking two of my favorite performances which are Smooth Criminal and Dengerous and combining them into one....so now instead of traditional blue/white I'll be black and red....so today I went shopping after class since I wanted to exchange my new military jacket for a bigger looser size and now I'm in heaven which I hope I can wear to see This Is It lol. Then, off to Payless Shoes where I bought BOOTS (sorry...boots make me squee) and on the plus these boots look almost like loafers and are a dream to moonwalk in ....I bought a new tribute shirt but unfortunately need to exchange that so two out of three ain't bad lolSo as of right now I'm happy because I've managed to complete more of my mission and since this costume idea it'll be a snap *snap* (I just hope people don't condem me for remixing a classic hm) as of right now I need a red shirt, red socks, suspenders, and spats...and with that I've finished with my randomosity and I'll leave you with you mind in a puddle...Until then....

Love & Peace

~HeadphonesLuV~

*cue the Thriller laugh*

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Track 28: New Look For The Blog & Birthday Run Down

What it do lovely Blogger? 'Tis I, Headphones, coming at your with my 27th blog which is kinda of a shocker since the most I've ever blog was like 12 so yeah...I must really like this place....so let's get to business....SHALL WE?!

So anyways as you may have noticed (well obviously lol) I have changed up my blog with a new header and new colors of blues and blacks to match the theme of the new header which features the late King of Pop Michael Jackson from the "They Don't Care About Us". It's one of my favorite song of MJ's from the HIStory album. The song really fits to how I feel about today's society overall from the government to the future of today's children. The quote is from Scream which is another song I love and it also show my stand on today's society. But anyways I made the background as a late tribute to Michael Jackson. So Michael this blog is dedicated to you....

Speaking of tribute, Michael's third month anniversary since his passing just so happened to fall on my birthday September 25. Yes, I have turned the big 19 and I must say I felt somewhat bittersweet since that morning I had my Computer Info System class and that was just plain super boring so I just couldn't wait for that class to end so I can just get home and relax and fall asleep to MJ which I did until I had to go to the eye doctor....not cool.....

So I did go to the doctor and stayed there for like 4 hours but up side of it I got some new glasses (yes I'm a nerdy nerd nerd lol) and got my old pair fixed so I got two working pairs....Plus, all day long I've gotten Happy Birthday texts and looked on my Facebook and saw loads of them so just wanna say a big thanks to all those who took the time out to wish a happy birthday lol. Afterwards, my bro took me out to eat but not without being in a car blasting nothing but Michael Jackson music because being the brother that he is he knows that I am a huge Michael Jackson fan YO! It's a great Japanese place called Sakura's and that place is awesome....entertaining and great food.....and can't end a meal without embarrassing the birthday girl by getting a piece of awesome cheesecake NOM NOM NOM!! Then I got home to catch what I could on the Dateline Special on MJ's Secret Tapes and then I went to the kitchen and realized something wasn't right and before I could run away I was caught and embarrassed again with another cheesecake with a printed picture of MJ (I had stated that if I could I'd want a cake with a picture of MJ on it) my bro called the cake a bootleg MJ cake so I could not help but feeling embarrassed and laughing. Because present to come aside from the dinner was my mom's...She gave me this beautiful coffee book of Michael Jackson chronicling his life and success :) to go with my Barack Obama book.....two men who have made History....

Next day Saturday I went out to breakfast with my mom and her two friends who happen to be sisters and my mom told the waitress that it was my birthday and I was like NOO!!! not again lol....but the waitress was like exasperated like "You were supposed to tell me when I was in the side kitchen so she wouldn't hear and before the meal" she was nice about it though she told me Happy Birthday and I was glad nothing happened...or so I thought....I was again embarrassed for the third time when the staff present me with a Birthday Sundae but it was delicious no less lol silly waitress but she was cool no less....That was it and I gotta say even though I didn't get a lot I was happy for once lol...

That's it for now....just wanted to share my birthday with y'all and I'll be back to blogging about the going ons and my take on everything so far....so until then....

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV808~

Track 27: GET UP! To the VMAs

WHOO!!! WHAT IS GOOD BLOGGER?! It is I, Headphones, bringing you a post on the stuff that has got you talking and I'm gonna talk about what had occurred last night on the tube. Yes you know it and you love it (....yeah right?) YES! I'm talking about the Video Music Awards or VMAs so let us begin with the good, the bad, and the just plain dumb occurrences so let us begin SHALL WE?!


Alright, so Sunday night at 9PM was the showing of the VMAs hosted by Russel Brand and I gotta say OVERALL it was a good show but some of it....ummm....meh....



I'm here to bring you a blog about what I saw at the VMAs and I liked what I saw but I hate what's happening now.....It didn't help that the show starting off with Madonna giving a speech about MJ because I really didn't want to cry but when I heard her talk I agreed with her...We had abandoned at least I felt I did....when the 2005 molestation trial occurred I was so disappointed in Michael and I just said why did you let this happen again. I didn't say he was guilty but I didn't show my support for his innocence. But when his acquittal came I prayed....prayed he'd be cleared that way he can just get on with his life. Now as I write this and think about Madonna's speech my vision's blurring from tears rising. I'm so sorry Michael that I lost faith in you....Madonna's speech showed us the truth about Michael and that yes he was human but DAMMIT HE WAS A KING!! I thank you Madonna for showing people that Michael was more then a legend....he was a man....Probably the first time I actually agree with Madonna...of course it's never complete with me to find something to bitch about (severely bad habit I need to work on) but on some parts I felt that she was looking for more sympathy for herself and talking about MJ as if those two were the same....I mean she could've talked about him as a whole to us not just comparing each other....but that's just me and yes I cried....a lot....

I admit I'm somewhat disappointed with Janet's performance I mean don't get me wrong it was really great to me but it was just too short. But then again she is hurting and to perform a song without your brother being there physically I wouldn't know how to handle that so for that Janet I commend your strength. So by far her tribute may be the most real and best to her brother. When I watched her I thought she sounded rough but it was still great because this song was directed towards anybody who wants to **** with this ***** (no insult :P) or her big brother. She had messed up on one part of her choreography but to me it didn't matter she was overall good. I mean her slip up is minimal compared to the failtacular lean one of the supposed best dancer did at the end of the Smooth Criminal dance....I don't care what reason he gives he screwed up one of MJ greatest creation aside from the Moonwalk but then again he didn't invented that so mmhm. In a way now that he's gone he can't defend himself anymore so Janet will keep this song alive with her....at the end she looked almost angry but whatever she was feeling or thinking she was entitled to it. Thank you Janet for your dedication to Michael.

But all this...Madonna's heartfelt speech, Janet's performance for her brother, and MJ's This Is It trailer were overshadowed by Kanye West and a case of a douchebaggery...Look, I love Kanye West's music but sometimes I don't approve of his behavior and the VMAs are the prime example. I wanted Beyonce to win but instead Taylor Swift won the award for "Best Female Video" I guess...which I wasn't really bothered I was just like hey she won something she didn't expected good for her. Then Kanye had to go at it and at first I thought he was just playing like he usually pokes fun at his diva like attitude but then I really saw it. I was like NO DAMMIT KANYE DON'T MAKE YOURSELF LOOK STUPID!! Too late....he got booed throughout the night, he was kicked out, and his act took away from the real reason...a tribute to MJ - LOVE EACH OTHER!! RESPECT EACH OTHER!! What would Michael think if he saw that? Now every musician is out for his head....Look I'm gonna clear something up Kanye West never claimed he was the new 'King of Pop' and that an interview that was being passed around was a made up interview filled with misleading quotes. I know many don't see it but Kanye has too much respect to Michael to make those kind of claims especially since without Michael there would not be half the musician we have today.Now I agree that what Kanye did was a very messed up thing to do especially since this was Taylor Swift's first VMA award. I don't listen to her music and I actually enjoyed her performance it was very creative I give her that. But that doesn't give the right tp go up on stage and take her microphone and say what Kanye said. SHAME ON YOU KNAYE!I have a message to all the musicians: GROW THE **** UP!! Yes it was wrong what Kanye did by taking away from Taylor but there is no need for you and Taylor Swift fans to go on your little Twitter pages stating things like "Kanye you're a piece of ****" or "Kanye should be banned from the radio" or "KANYE SHOULD DIE!!". Saying **** like that only goes to annoy us who don't take things so literal. Yes, Kanye was the douchebag of the night. But Kanye had an opinion. He is entitled to an opinion. He should've keep that opinion to himself. He was kicked out of the show. He later apologized to Taylor and her mom. Beyonce was the bigger person and allowed Taylor to finished her speech. Plus Taylor is a big girl she can fend for herself so I don't know why people are treating her like this child. She's ****in' 19 years old so dammit all y'all need to chill the **** out with the manhunt threats.This is something that will disappear in less than a week....if not I really don't care because whether y'all diss me I still like Kanye West. And Taylor Swift congratulations on our first VMA awards...This night was for you MJ but unfortunately it was overshadowed by pure childish antics and overreacting musicians...

But aside from Kanye's douchebaggery, I was really looking forward to Lady Gaga's performance and she did not disappoint...OH I WANNA MARRY YOU LADY GAGA!!! Her performance was so great and shocking as hell but I loved it anyway because I like originality...Another performance was Pink's...hers was even better because she did it all while thirty feet in the friggin' air....I have no other words....Anyways to sum it up....the VMAs were dope but Kanye just ruined it for me because now all I hear is Kanye and Taylor...I'm sick of it....

Anyways until next time y'all I take my bow so I'll see y'all bitches later....I know this post is late as hell but I don't give a damn I have a life to live but I still make time for you Blogger so it's all good...

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 26: Remember The Time

Hello lovely Blogger....how I miss thee? What is good? It is I, your absolutely distraught Headphones, coming at you with my feelings like every other blogger who hates themselves (just kidding about that last part)

As we all know....two months ago we lost our great entertainer....the legend....The King of Pop...y'all know him as Michael Jackson....Throughout these two months we heard nothing again about Michael Jackson as a person....a son, a brother, a father, a friend since his July 7th memorial at the Staples Center. All we ever here is the cocktail of drugs found in his body, his death being ruled homicide, Dr. Conrad Murray at the center of the whole entire investigation, money problems....all of it and unfortunately it may never go away.

But yesterday, September 3rd all that was pushed aside when Michael was finally laid to rest at Forest Lawn Memorial Park in Glendale, California. I watched the coverage of it up until the hearse with his coffin pulled up into the service when the Live Pool Feed (*basically this a camera feed that was set up for the media outlet that they all had to share) cut to an end just before it began. The service was nothing like what the family had said but it was still just as touching. It was intimate but had over 200 people in attendance but all close personal friends and family (he had a huge family....), there were actual cameras there and it was stated that this footage may be used in an upcoming Jackson's reality show or the This Is It movie coming soon to a theater near you but still no confirmation.

Aside from all the technical stuff because I really don't want to repeat it because all I want as a fan is some closure I couldn't stop crying yesterday. But thankfully he was not buried on his birthday because that was a time for celebration of his LIFE and burying him would've have just been too somber. I was in California the week of his birthday and on that day I went to visit my uncle who had passed 3 years ago and the emotions of his birthday and losing my uncle was so much for to not shed tears. I tried hard to be happy for you Michael and Uncle but it still so hard to grip the fact that we lost you. He's finally buried in privacy and maybe now he can rest in peace away from the media madhouse. I'm still shock and numb because it's like I believe that he's not dead but every time I hear his name it's like...I get so excited inside but it dawns on me that he's really dead....At one point I wanted to know how he was going to look one final time actually see him. But now I don't think I could handle seeing him sleeping in his last bed forever if they actually caught it. It's just too hard...but finally Michael you can sleep....and we'll miss you always but you'll never be silent...We love you MJ....

Sleep Well Michael

Rest In Peace

~HeadphonesLuV808~

Making Like Jesus ad BRBing!!

What's doing Blogger It is I our all loving Headphones back from the dead and here to bring you a small update....

Okay so off the track I just want to wish MJ a belated Happy 51st birthday. I'll do a much more in-depth blog when I'm back at my own computer that doesn't have a shitty keyboard. Also reasons why I haven't been updating despite the shitloads to talk about with news of more deaths of the stars and so many updates in MJ's investigations than I can keep track of is because I haven't been up to writing on my blogs because I've been spending my time in deep thoughts late at night when I don't sleep (which will probably have to stop soon since I'll be returning to school which is just so criminal). I plan on documenting these thoughts and I'll share them when I feel I can and will. So another reason is that right now I haven't told many but I'm in good ole California and I'll be returning soon so until then I'll see y'all real soon.....

Peace & Love

HeadphonesLuV808

Track 25: Shut It or I Will Murder You >_<

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Alright, so as my post title says I am mad as hell! I fell asleep at about oh....shy of 5AM since I really do believe I have insomnia. About 3-4 hours after I had fallen asleep I get a call or should I say calls from my post advisor...I'm pissed so I don't answer....people should know I am not EVER awake at 8 AM but then again I also thought the calls were my alarms I forgot to turn off before so yeah....and I didn't call him last night to tell who is doing what? And of course the people who say they'll do it probably MOST likely won't show so I'll be given shit for not doing what I was told when really I called everybody in my phonebook that is in the post and most of them said I gotta work or I got school and some just plain didn't answer because either y'all don't have text or some of you are just plain lazy...stoopid members....ugh enough of that shit....

Alright, so after I finally go back to sleep only to be woken up by BANGING!!! People showed up to fix my roof from the damage a few months back and I didn't get any warning...those bitches....so I stumbled out of my room at around 8:30ish and look into my dad's room and ask if there are suppose to be people outside banging on the side of the house...and he goes yeah they're fixing the roof...so I'm just standing -__- WTF?! GIMME A FUCKIN' WARNING NEXT TIME!!! So I'm laying in bed listening to the banging so I just go fuck it I'll go on the computer and work on some shit before I consider whether to go out or not. So now I'm here....Now this all happened Tuesday.

So Wednesday comes and I show up at the station and thankfully it’s a pretty chill day so I just work with my new members, teach them some stuff and spent the rest of the time being distracted by my three sexy ass lovers lol my two wives and side dish lol and I feel bad that they might’ve have scarred the two young ones but then again they’ll see it in high school and of course my good friend has returned so I'm semi happy but that's about it.

Thursday, my ma stayed home from work....so I go with her to Rite-Aid and load up on some magazines which was a SHITLOAD but when they’re tributes to the King of Pop I had to get them because I’m a fan and that’s what I do. Plus they’re some bomb ass pictures in them and I’m gonna admit it but MJ was a very pretty man so there. So I probably got a total of probably seven magazines plus four tabloid ones. So now I need to find something to protect these magazines to protect them.

(By the way, a message to a friend who went to Otakon on Friday and is staying up in Baltimore until Sunday, I hope you’re having a good time up there and bring me back a present bitch lol I’m just kidding…=^__^=)


Skipping over to today, so today is Saturday and I just got back from an outing with my ma and I treated her to some Starbucks because let’s face it she deserved it and I wanted to. See, I’m not always mean lol but anyways we went to Target which is like my favorite place to be sometimes but not before going to Kohl’s so my ma can look for something to wear at her job which unfortunately she found but didn’t buy due to misleading pricing lol but we did end up buying these cute gorillas plushies one for me and one for her friend’s daughter. I shall name mine ‘Bubbles’ haha I’m so crazy but I got to admit it’s one of the few cute ape plushies. So then off to Target we go to find a baby shower gift but their stupid registry computers are down (due to construction go figure) so I just wander off to the music section hoping that I’d find the CD I was looking for and need and LO AND BEHOLD!!! THERE IT IS!!! That’s right I have found the final CD to complete my Michael Jackson CDs collection which was Off the Wall I am happy as a fat kid seeing cake so I takes it and wander around the store for a bit and enter the book section where the magazines are and I found even more tribute magazine and as tempted I was to take them I had to refrain because I would most likely not have enough to buy them all and the CD so I’m going to wait for a bit and clam down a bit because I got the main ones I wanted so far. To makes things better I get the CD for 10 bucks so now I’m happy and I’m celebrating with my Starbuck’s Java Chip and Bubbles the Gorilla lol.



Now down to the news updates…I know I said I was going to stop with this but I have to get this out before I go crazy and say stuff I can’t take back. So let's begin with what put the cherry on this clusterfuck of fuckery...SHALL WE?!

Alright, so I get up on the internet and I look on AOL and see a story about Michael Jackson and a new book coming out about the star until the moment of his death. This book was written by the same person who had predicted around last December that Michael was going to die within in six month afterwards and in a sick twist of fate six month and a day later Michael Jackson is pronounced dead. So, I had stated that I will no longer be blogging about news updates about the pop star and mysteries surrounding his death, kids, and fortune but two things had caught my attention. The first being LaToya's interviews with a British tabloid and her statements and the second is this author's interview which left me pissed. So I'll start with LaToya interview...

So LaToya had said in an interview that she believed that Michael was murdered in some sort of conspiracy by a shadowy entourage. She believed that they’re more than one person involved in Michael’s death. She and her family have seen the results of the autopsy that the family had ordered but didn’t reveal anything to the reporter. “I believe Michael was murdered, I felt that from the start," quoted LaToya Jackson as saying. "Not just one person was involved, rather it was a conspiracy of people." She also went all to say that "Michael was a very meek, quiet, loving person. People took advantage of that. People fought to be close to him, people who weren't always on his side."

Now, I’ve had my thoughts of LaToya and most of them were negative because she had said a lot of incriminating things if that’s the right word to say. She had sppoke against her brother in 1993 when the molestation charges had surface which then she later retracted. Then we see her at her brother’s side at the 2005 molestation charges. As well, her involvment in dealing with her brother (picking out his burial outfit, what the brother’s should wear, signing the death certificate, and everything else) as much as I don’t want to say it I am very suspicious of her intentions. I can’t help but think that she is wanting attention and is using her brother’s death as a way of getting it much like her father is doing too. And she was PAID to do this interview now if you really do believe that Michael was murdered and are on a manhunt to find answer you shouldn’t be paid unless you were going to give that money to the kids and plus she doing a tabloid magazine no less. But then again LaToya believes that the paper is a credible source and I really don’t know what she is doing so right now. I’m judging here in any way and if I look like I am I apologize because yes I have my doubt about her but for now I’ll keep to myself because she is most likely on to something and I actually agree with her that Michael was murdered because many of his doctors are running scared and I’m very suspicious of Murray. That’s all for that

Moving on to this author, so this guy, Ian Halperin, had predicted in December of 2008 that Michael Jackson would be dead within six months and exactly six months and one day later, Jackson died suddenly in Los Angeles. Now the book Halperin was in the process of revising retitled it 'Unmasked: The Final Years of Michael Jackson,’

Now, this guy was out to get Michael and most likely to destroy him and he even said it himself that he wanted to nail this guy and decided to right a book based only on rumors like apparently Michael was gay, he wasn’t a child molester (uhh duh we all know that he was acquitted). Just because you make a prediction that was correct doesn’t mean the shit you hear is right and your words are the final word. I very compelled to buy this book and read it to see what this fool has apparently found on the star but then my money will be going to that douchebag but if I don’t I’ll be boycotting and be one less person to read his tabloid shit. If I did buy it I could burn it, record it, and show it to the author but then again I’d waste my money. So I dunno…

In unrelated news, one of the greatest news anchors has passed away and most of us wouldn’t know who this was but he was a very trustworthy anchor and was very influential on today’s reporters and he has been around for almost the entire 20th century. He died at the age of 92 and will be missed. “And that’s the way it was…” Rest in Peace Walter Cronkite 1916-2009.

Alright I’m done ranting for now so I’ll end the song here and I’ll take my bow. Thank you and that’s all she wrote.

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 24: A Legend Remembered....

What's doing Blogger?

It's your Headphones coming to bring you an update...to start off, I'm sure that my friend will be thrill to hear this lol but I will finally stop posting up news updates on the passing of Michael Jackson because all the questions about him, all the negativity of people anonymous or famous (I'm looking at you Peter King you douchebag), mysteries of his kids, and death....were all silence on Tuesday when we had celebrated the life and legacy of a great man and all those who said otherwise about a man of greatness were silence each time with each speaker....From now on, Michael's life shall remain a life to celebrate because we may have lost him physically but spiritually he lives on within all of us through his music and videos. Michael Jackson will never be silent so I want to thank him for giving us joy, laughter, and your wonderful talent. Thank you Joseph and Katherine for sharing your son with the entire world because without him we wouldn't be where we are today. A piece of music had died on that fateful day and it can never be replace....

On Monday, I went to Hyattsville to PGCC's extension center to deal with some bullshit for school and afterwards I went of course the street to do a little bit of shopping and bought four magazine dealing with the whole passing of MJ at Target. I tried looking for MJ's "Off The Wall" CD since I'm still missing it from the collection but of course couldn't find it....so I also bought me a commemorative t-shirt to the King of Pop because I already knew that as soon as this happened T-Shirts would be popping up everywhere and frankly I was right as soon as I got off at PG Station and walked towards the mall I saw them lol. They did it with Obama so go figure lol...So I was on my way home and I must say I kinda like taking the bus sometimes because it's almost like a place of thought for me at least and you become very observant of people. So on my way home, I was suddenly thinking about my ex and I wanted to see him and wouldn't you know...when the bus arrived in from of the National Library of Agricultural HE COMES ON!! WAI!! Wouldn't you know wishes do come true even if you didn't want them too...lol I just sat there and rode on home as much as I wanted to speak I couldn't...what a sick sense of humor God must have lol joking....

So, on Tuesday was Michael Jackson's memorial...and call me crazy I actually signed up for the lottery and so did my mom for maybe a chance to get to go to the memorial but I knew it was close to impossible plus I think it was better that I wasn't able to go because it'll be just too much. So, I watched it on TV on CNN and I have no words to say because it was just so heartwarming and sweet. It started out with Smokey Robinson reading letters the first from Diana Ross and the other from Nelson Mandela...and to me it just shows that he was so renowned to the world. Then, Mariah Carey came out to perform "I'll Be There" and I got to say she kind of didn't do that song any justice so sure blame it on the emotions, the sadness but come on I mean someone can do a better tribute than her I mean I like Mariah but uh...sorry....So I'll just describe it in a nutshell because y'all can look it up some place where they play videos. When I saw Usher perform "Gone Too Soon' and went to touch his idol's casket and weep...I started to sob. When I heard Jermaine perform his brother's favorite song "Smile" I started to cry harder. But when I heard Marlon speak of his brother I thought I heard the saddest part but it wasn't until she had spoke that my heart had fell. When Michael's 11 year old daughter, Paris, spoke about her daddy being the best father and that she loved him it left me heartbroken.

That's enough of that no more news updates and whatever the hell I was rambling about. I've lost all track of how many it's been since the passing of Michael Jackson...so I'll just go on with my life or whatever I do with my time....so let's begin SHALL WE?!

So on Wednesday I had to go to my post and I ended up doing probably 100 push-ups apparently sabotage or I didn't get names I dunno go figure....and after that I ended up cooking for probably 15 people since I didn't wanna play baseball so yeah that was about it for the police station...so I came home and I was delightfully surprised by my mom who gave me two brand new t-shirt, a red t-shirt with the Japanese Kanji for "love" and a green one with the Japanese Kanji for "good luck", as well as Michael Jackson's Number Ones DVDs and that my friend had just made me feel a lot better lol...

Skip over to Friday, I wasn't really planning on doing anything since I was cancelled on if ya can call it that but anyways so I got out of the showers and put on the Number Ones DVD and listened to the great hits and watched the videos and started to text my good friend and laughed at his misfortune haha just kidding but we're bored...So I go to hang out with him like I usually do because I apparently have no life...and we talked about deep shit but I won't get into that as well as reminisced about losing MJ so suddenly as well as the fate of music for the future. This is what we talked about while y'all are at work assuming that you still have jobs....Afterwards, I came home to another delightful surprise when my mom gave me FOUR commemorative magazine for Michael Jackson so I was extremely happy lol....although I'm not done just yet....lol

So I guess that's really it for now so I'll end the song here and take my bow....Thank ya and good night....

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 23: In The News Today From the Strange and Wierd Fact File: Tabloid Junkie

(TO THE ONE WHO MAY READ THIS POST, please do not judge me or get upset or if you can please do not read this. I know you do not want anything to do with the news but I’m afraid that I’m way too deep in and this is what I am use to and in a very sick way comforts me. After I had written this I was so distraught and I regret even writing and posting this post.)

What’s doing Blogger....?

It's your loving Headphones bringing you an special update on our passing of Michael Jackson...Well I don’t know how special this update is gonna be since that's what I've been talking about these past few days (just gotta say sorry man for the constant posting about him I'm sure there's a way to hide my post here somewhere) but I mean this post is gonna be jam pack with countless updates I've been getting from all over. So, we're into our fifth day going into the sixth day going into the seventh day since the passing of Michael and I really don't know why I'm keeping of the days I know I'll stop soon but yeah some of us still find it hard to believe that he is in fact gone but unfortunately as much as we want to deny it he's forever gone...Anyways I got 'Tabloid Junkie' (if you don't know this song go I got a video with the song but if it doesn't play go pick up History: Past, Present, and Future BOOK ONE and listen to Track 11) on friggin' repeat because this song fits perfectly with today's news because we have turned news of Michael Jackson's passing into a media circus. So, let us begin with the news updates SHALL WE?!

A little side note, Farrah Fawcett's funeral is set to take place today and her son, 24 year-old son, Redmond, who is currently in jail for probation violation, will be release for Farrah’s funeral today in Los Angeles. Prayers got out to her family she will be sadly missed and she has become a true angel.

First off, Michael Jackson's mother Katherine Jackson has been named temporary guardian of Michael's three kids, Prince Michael Jackson age 12, Paris Michael Katherine Jackson age 11, and Prince Michael II age 7 also known as 'Blanket' and was also awarded temporary control of her son's property and assets...Now, I must say that these kids deserve to be with someone who they are comfortable with and Katherine is the one although some worry about their exposure to Joseph Jackson after constant allegations of his abuse towards Michael. And to all those who are saying otherwise or berating the parents for being horrible, abusive, neglectful now I can understand that being said about Joe but to say that about Katherine. Michael had nothing but absolute love for his mother and she did absolutely nothing to him and does not even live with Joseph right now. Further more, Debbie Rowe has never been present in the lives of these children and even claimed that she didn’t want to be that these kids were a ‘gift’ to Michael but is being very considerate about the kid's well being as to wait until after his burial to speak with Katherine about possible custody of the three children. Of course there is also the matter of their nanny Grace who has taken care of them since being born and was there to comfort the children after finding out their father was gone but it’s very unlikely she’ll fight for guardianship. So again this can go any way....so I pray for the kids...I just feel absolutely distraught that they had seen their father after he had just pass but I also commend them for being so brave to do because I know that I would never be able to do that no matter how old I am....

Speaking of the kids, new stories are popping up as to saying that Michael Jackson's three children were never, neither his or the mother of his first two kids, own biological kids. Apparently, neither Michael's sperm nor Debbie Rowe's egg were used in the conception of the children but in fact were conceived in vitro or she was artificially inseminated. She had basically acted only as a surrogate mother for the first two children. This also gave rise to the questions of the kids’ looks as both of them are light-skinned, fair-haired and have blue eyes. This gives the question of “Were these two kids really Michael’s?" Under Californian law, even if they are not biologically his, he was legally their father. Debbie had signed away her parental rights in 2001 in exchange for a cash settlement but however in 2006, after she reached a custody agreement with Jackson, she changed her mind after saying that they weren’t Michael’s kids and claimed they were conceived naturally. It’s also claimed that Michael had never adopted his kids as well. In one story, it was said that when his first son was born he wasn’t even present at the birth but instead a lawyer was there to pick up his son and deliver him to Michael at his home.

Now this whole story about his death has turn into a whole media circus coming out with these stories but now that I look at his two kids it's actually quite possible I mean I've had that question too I'm not going to lie but I just think that hey whether or not he had something to do with those kids’ conception he is their father but now they're saying that he never adopted these kids I don’t know maybe he didn't expect to up and die suddenly or he felt he didn't need to but this can cause a shitload of problems for anybody who takes these kids and control of his estate. These stories may never disappear from the news so even in death MJ has managed to take over the news as well as tabloids...In fact if you watch his extended interview with Martin Bashir there is an interview with Debbie Rowe explaining the day Prince was born so there are a lot of contradictions in this story. And there are claims that a former doctor of Michael’s and Debbie Rowe’s former boss a dermatologist may actually be the father of these kids. Right now all I got to say is what the hell?!

Now, Michael's parents were led to believe that their son had died without a will but in fact a lawyer has come forward, who was recently rehired by Jackson a few weeks before and has work with Michael since the mid 80s, saying that Michael had written a will seven years ago back in 2002 which he kept in a safe in his office. He had filed Michael Jackson's will with the Los Angeles County Superior Court on Wednesday morning. Now in his will he had stated that his entire estate which is claimed to be worth at least $500 million would be placed in the 'Michael Jackson Family Trust' but they have no idea where the document is located so it can be filed within court. Former wife and mother of his kids, Deborah Rowe Jackson, was 'intentionally omitted' from the will which means she won't be getting a anything. Michael also nominated his mother, Mrs. Katherine Jackson, to be the permanent guardian of his three children ages 7, 11, and 12 which she already has temporary guardianship over. If she were not living at the time of Jackson's death then the singer had also nominated that Diana Ross would be granted guardianship of the three guardianship. Attorneys John Branca and Barry Siegel and John McClain, a music industry executive and longtime Jackson friend, were named as executors of the will. The L.A. Superior Court Judge Mitchell Beckloff held an emergency hearing Wednesday morning, known as an ex parte hearing, for to request that control of the estate be turned over to Branca and McClain immediately but it was later decided that there was no sense of urgency to replace Katherine who was also appointed temporary administrator for the week so another hearing is set up for next Monday. The will did not have any specifications as to what Michael wanted for his funeral or where he would want to be buried. Of course, there was no mentioned of Michael Jackson's father and although this will has been made public information there are still questions about more wills surfacing…

Here’s a copy of the will from seven years ago written back in 2002
(http://www.aolcdn.com/tmz_documents/0701_mj_will_wm.pdf)

Now, I am absolutely not surprised that his father Joseph was never mentioned in his will as well as his ex wife getting anything either but I mean there is still a lot of things to look into as well as to consider because a will is not the FINAL word. But then again, their are a lot of mystery surrounding this will because he had stated that he wanted his estate to go into a Michael Jackson Trust but there are no ideas as to where the documents for this trust is. As well, to make Diana Ross another nominate to take guardianship of the kids in case Katherine wasn't fit to kind of took me by surprise but then again she was one of the closest friends to Michael so I guess it's understandable. This could turned into a very messy situation and take an immeasurable toll upon the family...

So the story keeps changing about just what kind of memorial is going to happen for the King of Pop. The family has come out with a statement saying that a public memorial viewing at Neverland Ranch will NOT be occurring this Friday nor will a private memorial service for the family occur on Sunday. In Gary, Indiana, Michael's hometown, has brought to the table the idea to have it's pop idol buried there along with a massive memorial service at a local ballpark some time this month. A proposed burial site would be near a proposed Jackson Family museum and performing arts center as spoken by spokeswoman Lalosa Burn who also says that Gary's mayor Clay hasn't received confirmation. Clay had told WGN that he expects Jackson's body, at the least, will be taken to Gary for a July 10 memorial service at U.S. Steel Works ballpark. Joseph, Michael's father, had ruled out the Neverland Ranch, which Michael had bought back in 1987 and filled with animals and amusement park rides, as a burial site and has given no public indication of just where his resting place will be...Tom Barrack Jr., a billionaire who engineered Michael's financial rescue in 2008 and had gain control of the ranch through his company. The future of Michael's property will be discussed later because the main thing is to ensure that the grieving fans who gather from all around are treated nothing but properly. Also, there are questions on whether Neverland Ranch would become the new Graceland of California by transforming his ranch into a shrine to the King of Pop but neighbors are anything but happy saying that it will turn the quiet town into a chaotic whirlwind and will cause endless traffic problems. As well, the land Neverland Ranch was no longer in Michael's possession after being acquitted of child molestation charges he abandoned the property after failing to pay its worker or the insurance on it. The parents of Michael Jackson have some share on the ranch property....He may be buried in a cemetery in Los Angeles that overlooks Disney Studio and holds other famous stars…

I got to say I'm really glad that the family had decided to change their plans because honestly as much as I'm upset that I won't be able to give my final farewell to him being that I live way on the other side of this friggin' country I don't even think I'd be able to anyway because that memorial will be nothing but chaotic and pandemonium and the highway there being so narrow as they describe it there wouldn't be a way to make this event efficient and neat. As for Neverland becoming a shrine I would really like that to happen I always wander what it was like up there with Michael and to all those haters who are going to say shit about those trials and how they shouldn’t make a child molester’s funhouse a shrine FUCK YOU!! You don’t know shit go do some research and kill yourself!! I mean Elvis has Graceland and was buried there I thinks but Michael should be buried at his trademark home and have it opened as a shrine. I mean that'll bring in a hell of a lot of money and well as bring in business but then again that's just me....and plus they’ll always be a place for fans to go to so they can see their idol. But if he’s buried in an LA cemetery then that’ll be just as good since I’m always in California. Then again, they can always go back to local roots so he could be buried back in Gary, Indiana. It can go either way but of course that’s just my opinion…

Moving on, I've been meaning to talk about this after I saw the BET Awards but got buried in news. WHAT THE HELL IS JOSEPH’S PROBLEM?! Does he not realize that his son is dead and that fans around the world are grieving FOR THE LOSS?! Why the hell did this man plug his new record label when he was doing an interview with CNN when they we're covering the BET Awards? This just shows how bad this man has been using his son's fame for his own gain. Then he holds a press conference and tries to clear up his bizarre behavior saying "This is what my son would've wanted me to do by going on in the music business." But this guy deserves the 'Worst Father Award' but whatever....Janet was a surprise guest at the BET Awards and I must say she was so brave to come out and speak about her brother's death but why did she speak at the show alone I mean shouldn’t her father been with her but I don’t know maybe he’ll plug his record label again? I send her and the family my prayers and condolences...

Next up, there is a claim that Michael Jackson had a 'secret wife' and she is claiming to be the mother of his children and them being sexually involved and now she is demanding all of his property who had filed a petition in the L.A. County Superior Court. This woman, Nona Paris Lola Ankhesenamun Jackson, lives in London and asked “That all my husband’s properties, monies and assets must be transferred to me immediately and my husband’s body must be returned to the coroner’s body or the mortuary immediately.” There is no evidence that this woman had any relationship whatsoever with Michael. She has had an active court cast since December of last year ‘claiming’ she was actually married to the singer.

Okay, this story had made me laugh like crazy…just by how ridiculous it sounds. We finally found out who ‘Billie Jean’ is that he has been singing about all these years. All joking aside, there are fans out there who say they’re married to MJ and it’s expected and now we all know and expect claims to come into light saying that a woman is married to MJ and she bore his kids and what not but this bitch takes the cake. First of all, her name alone is enough to go off this stupid woman has like five names…come on…Next, I’ve seen this chick because on the website I’ve seen this story on had a link to a video of hers and she is actually on Blogger again claiming to be his wife and I couldn’t see the video because for some reason it kept shutting down my connection and I glad cause I don’t want this woman to infect my computer. But, from what I saw this woman is DARK AS HELL!! How the hell could she bore two white ass kids even with MJ I mean seriously….This is just one of the dumbest things I’ve heard and I’ve heard dumber. I’d believed that a dermatologist actually fathered Michael’s kids than this woman…And to top it all off, she has absolutely NO proof that she had any relationship with Michael Jackson. This woman is wasting her time, energy and is just making a fool out of herself.

So, now we’re at where the whole thing started…WHAT KILLED MICHAEL JACKSON?! Before going into that, apparently a British tabloid had leaked the autopsy of Michael Jackson stating that ha was literally skin and bones with no food in his stomach just pills and that he was bald with nothing more than a ‘peach fuzz’.

The link to the autopsy is right here.
http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/2505693/The-shock-findings-of-the-Michael-Jackson-autopsy.html

All I’m going to say about this is DO NOT BELIEVE THIS GARBAGE!! This is a fake autopsy and I know you are better than that to believe this tabloid.

A former nurse, Cherilyn Lee, of Jackson had come forward and had stated that Michael had begged for drugs to help him sleep since he was apparently suffering from insomnia. He asked for a particular drug that is called Propofol which was apparently discovered at his residence after another search. Its brand name is Diprivan and is used to put patients under anesthesia before any surgery and is an extremely powerful sedative and is only available for medical personnel and there is no absolute was that is drug can be used at one’s home. It can only be administered through an IV and Propofol can burn so Lidocaine, which was also found at the home, is also used to reduce any pain with the injection. So now the DEA is getting involved in the death investigation to help tracked down Michael’s former doctors in order to find the source of his dangerous medications. Back in 2007, a lawsuit came forth claiming that Michael allegedly not paying his pharmacy bill which came out to a grand total of $101,926.66. Back to the drugs, a major side-effect of Propofol is cardiac arrest if taken with narcotic painkillers but is so powerful that just by itself can stop someone’s heart. If a doctor were to administer it and causes death especially for home use could be prosecuted for manslaughter. On Sunday, Lee had received a call from an aid of Michael’s and was being told that he was experiencing symptoms describing it as “one part of his body was hot and the other is cold…” there is no knowledge of what this could possibly be.

Also, Michael has apparently used an assortment of alias in order to get the very powerful drugs like Demerol (another medication he had also used) and his addiction was so out there that when he asked for prescriptions that pharmacist would just leave the name blank. Some sources are saying that Michael’s body had dozens of injection sites all over the body which may have come from the IV that is required in order to administer Propofol. It’s increasingly beginning to look as though Propofol is the main cause of Michael’s death and from the fact that they are injection sites all over the body shows that he had a serious drug problem.

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I really don’t know what to say about all of this…I mean it’s been noted that he had had a drug problem back in the early 90s to a point where had to go into a drug treatment program. This all came when the child sexual assault cases had come about…which I have a side note about the kid from the 1993 trials, it is said that he had come forward after Michael had died saying that he had lied about being molested by Michael. Whether this is true or not I just want to say FUCK YOU JASON CHANDLER! You and your father make me absolutely sick…you extorted from a man of brilliance by falsely accusing him of something involving the one thing that he love with all his heart therefore perverting it for all time and destroying a man’s life just to satisfy your despicable greed. YOU DISGUST ME AND I HOPE YOU SUFFER AND ROT IN HELL!!...I write this post with tears in my eyes because Michael had found relief in something that was slowing killing him and now it’s finally happened. With great fame comes greater downfall and now if finally came. I just can’t believe that he was a drug addict and when I say drug addict I don’t mean the hardcore illegal drugs like cocaine and heroin but the ones that we can get over the counter and are mishandled. I don’t want to say to future generations that the man who paved way for today’s artists that he was a drug addict and that’s what had killed him. I don’t know what to say I’m just distraught over why Michael believed that the only way to get relief was to take all these prescription drugs…

I felt sick after writing this but I guess I had my reasons to write it….I’m going to end this post here and I’m sorry for the long ass post it’s a lot of news to cover so with that I end this song here…and I take my bow…Good night all…

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV808~

Track 22: BET Awards and In The News Today...

What's doing Blogger

Headphones here to do another post as well as thoughts on everything so far. Just a message to a friend of mine...I'm sorry man, I ain't to come off the way I did while talking to you I'm just feelin' upset in general as well as not feelin' well so I ain't mean to put some weirdness between us...Hope we can hang out soon when I get better and in better spirits...So now on to the updates SHALL WE?!

In the death in Billy Mays, known best for promoting stuff like Oxiclean and KABOOM, the police we're trying to see if the incident where the plane Billy Mays was on blew its front tires which cause a rough landing which in turn cause luggage to fly out of its compartment and one piece had hit Mays in the head but later on claimed to be fine. When he later got home he began feeling a bit groggy and wanted nothing more to sleep. But when the autopsy came back it showed that he had no external or internal injuries on his head but in fact had something he never knew he had which may have been the actual cause of death. The autopsy had reveal that Mays was suffering from heart disease which he never knew he had but they are not ruling this as the official cause of death. He was 50 years old...They have just released the emergency 911 call for Billy Mays with his wife Debbie. It's truly a sad thing to hear...

In Entertainment News, the entertainment world loses another today with the death of Comedian Fred Travalena who has died after losing a seven year battle of cancer at the age of 66. Known as "The Man of a Thousand Faces" died at home in Encino, California, surrounded by family. He was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma in 2002 and prostate cancer in 2003. Following five years' remission, the lymphoma returned in 2008. He entertained audiences with impressions of celebrities such as Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin and Bob Hope. He was a regular on the "Tonight Show," with Johnny Carson. Travalena is survived by his wife of 39 years, Lois; sons Fred IV and Cory; daughter-in-law, Kelly; and a granddaughter. (Source: CNN News)

Now personally I have no idea who this man was but again it's all ways sad to hear someone of entertainment has pass but too many of them are being taken away from us within the past week...We lose Ed McMahon last Tuesday, then Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson Thursday, Billy Mays Saturday. It's crazy and truly sad...Condolences go out to Fred's family it's always sad to lose someone especially to disease but he's free of his pain now. So R.I.P FRED TRAVALENA!!

So, off the entertainment topic and into the business world, it is official that Bernard Madoff has been found guilty and sentenced to 150 years in jail which is basically a century and a half as well as to the end of his life. He was charged with being the mastermind of the largest and most sweeping Ponzi scheme ever. For those who don't understand the term of "ponzi"- A ponzi scheme is basically a term to call a pyramid scheme which basically mean white collar crimes and money laundering. I must say that this dude deserves every single year of his sentence for scheming thousands of people out of their life savings as well as taking advantage of those who don't understand money especially during this time of recession and our horrible economy so I hope this man rots in jail.

So, in DC the U.S. Supreme Court has ruled in favor of white fire fighters encountering workplace discrimination, a divisive case over the role race should play in job advancement. A fire department in New Haven had thrown out its promotional exam because the results showed that no African Americans had passed and wanting to avoid a legal battle. But in fact it was the other way around. I'll bring more on this later but I just wanna say that this was very ridiculous when I first heard because it was a bunch of white men and women with one hispanic but I guess after years of injustice towards us the minorities even whites can suffer to apparently....

Moving to the BET Award, I gotta say that the show overall looked kinda sloppy but of course they had to take an already scripted show, do a complete 180 and turn into a tribute show for the King of Pop sudden passing...The beginning of the show in my opinion did absolutely no justice to the Jackson Five...they sounded terrible and the background singers even worse. But Jamie Foxx was friggin' hilarious especially towards Diddy and all throughout the show. The best dedication to MJ was Neyo with his version of "Lady of My Life". Then Beyonce performance was simply beautiful as well as Jay-Z's performance was simply dope. But overall, it was sloppy but a good tribute so big ups to BET.

I know I was gonna puts some updates about the passing of Michael Jackson but I've got too much to post on this blog so I'll dedicate one to the one and only. So that's all I have so my song ends here and I'll take my bow...

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 21: Too Many Sad Days...A Message to Haters

What's doing Blogger?

It is I, Headphones, bringing another update on the PASSING of MJ as well as my thoughts as well as yours if y'all wanna share. So let us begin...SHALL WE?!

Alright, I bet y'all are getting sick of hearing about him but hey I mean it's such a huge shock that I still can't grasp the fact that we're now talking about his in past tense mentioning him as the late Michael Jackson I mean I'm still in denial and I think years from now I will still be denying that he is truly gone. But he lives on in our heart and our iPod because as long as we have those he'll never disappear and he'll never be silent...I've matured as a fan throughout my eight years and seeing the hater comments from YouTube, chatrooms any social sites there are always those few who get through and ruins a sad moment. Back then, I'd go friggin' ballistic on their asses but today I don't let it effect me because I know I can't stop all the haters, I can't silence them because their rights could be violated god forbid...I mean a few nights ago I was playing UNO online over on Facebook and I got into a one sided argument that I don't even know how it started and over the internet no less but I know it sparked over a comment about Michael and this stupiid chick just said the default comment everyone says about him saying he molested little kids so I just responded "okay" and just left it at that but she kept going and I just responded the same over and over. But she kept going trying to get me to stoop to her level but I never got into a friggin' CAP argument I just responded normally and she threw all the obscenities at me but I kept my ground. The point being is that getting into a fight over the interent is like winning the special olympics because sure you won and all but you're still retarded. In fact I want to thank her and all the MJ haters say what you want call him a fag, call him a child molestor, saying shit about his nose because Michael has an endless army of fans that would reach around the world twice over if they were to stand in a line than if all the haters were to ever come together. To all MJ fans, don't respond to the hate because if you do that means they win , it means they know how to make a fool out of you. Instead, tell them thank you because without those haters Michael would not be where he was today without them....I realize that there will always be haters out there to hate on this man even in death but we can never stop them because it is those people who makes us better without them we wouldn't have criticism and without criticism we'd have no way to better ourselves. So I want to thank them because without them we wouldn't of had such a great performer...

So there's really no new updates in the investigation on MJ's passing aside from the police are talking to the doctor who was probably the last person to see him alive as well as examining the emergency call. The results of the autopsy showed no foul play but the Jackson family are requesting for a second autopsy to find answers as to what had happen to Michael. There's also discussions about the fate of the children which is basically a versus battle between the mother of the first two and the Jackson family which could become a huge custody battle. The answers could be found in Michael's will as to who will take custody of the kids. Basically, all of us on a wait and see basis with what information that doctor provides, who will gets the kids, and what the results of the toxicology tests will tell us about what was the absolute cause of death was for Michael....

Here's my opinions on the who situation starting with the doctor. Now the police say that there were no indications of external trauma or foul play but they had found prescription drug within his system from the procedural autopsy but some follow up toxicology test are needed to find an absolute cause of death. But what's really tweaking my nerve is the doctor's behavior he was with him but from what I heard on the emergency call is that he was trying to do CPR on the bed. Now I'm not that in tuned with CPR I mean I'm had some training on it but even I know that you need to put the victim on a HARD surface and he a licensed doctor should know that even if it's a high stress situation a doctor knows that they have no time to be fluster and must keep a clear head. I hate to suspect this but I really do suspect that there is some foul play afoot that or the doctor had A LOT of explaining to do about what had happened that afternoon. As for who gets Michael's three kids, it can go both ways. I mean his ex-wife Debbie Rowe had offered to have his first two kids and after they divorced she gave him full custody of the kids. But she can come back and fight for custody after all she is the mother. As for the youngest one, he was born via surrogate and California Law are respectful to a surrogate which means full anonymity for the surrogate so it's basically between the ex wife and the family. Personally, I think the kids should go to Michael's family because they've know the family much of their lives and their actual mother has never been within their lives and these kids deserve to be surrounded by familiar faces.

So, in other news, first we lose Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, Michael Jackson and now I've just heard that Billy Mays the man who promotes a lot of products such as Oxyclean and ALWAYS TALKING LIKE THIS has also passed away today at the age of 50. He was discovered dead by his wife and police are saying that there are no sign of foul play. He was apparently hit in the head by a piece of luggage on a plane when it had blew a tire while landing so they're looking into a possible connection between that and his death. Hearing about this new death is just adding to the sadness of today I mean I am truly in fear about what will happen within the next few weeks. Please keep in mind those we have lost this past week and with that I end this post. That's my song and now I take my bow...

REST IN PEACE BILLY MAYS

Love and Peace

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 20: Third Update From A Saddened Fan

Hey Blogger it's Headphones bring you another update which makes this the third one in a row and I'm here to bring you an update of the PASSING of Michael Jackson...So, we're going on our third day since we lost one of our greatest artist and I'm still trying to grasp his passing I mean it was three days before his sudden death when I was watching his Ghost film (not video he never called them video)and his concert in Budapest and now I'm thinking "He can't be gone..."


Now I'm listening to people giving their stories about him and I can't listen to them speak of him in the past tense and now the news is just being heartless because I don't want to see them posting their headlines "Michael Jackson Dead at 50" or "The King of Pop DEAD at 50" DEAD DEAD DEAD!! To me, saying that about anyone whether famous or not....the word 'dead' seems so cold and heartless and in fact the news has been for the 40 years of Michael Jackson's career nothing but cold and heartless towards him. We never want to hear the good...nothing but the bad...

So, there has been updates in the investigation on the death of Michael Jackson...First off, moving vans were seen on the estate that Michael had rented out along with his sister Janet Jackson where they were packing up his personal items although they don't know what exactly was taken...Second, Michael Jackson's doctor, Dr. Conrad Murray, who was with him and may have been the last person ever to see the King of Pop alive, is cooperating with police after being in seclusion and hiring an attorney. The autopsy on Michael's body presented no signs of external trauma or and sign of foul play...As well, they released the 911 Emergency call which may play a key role if an investigation was needed...

Now, seeing all the videos of the ambulances at his estate, the police taking his body wrapped in that haunting white sheet to the helicopter on it's way to the coroner, the very last photo of the him on the stretcher with EMTs desperately trying to revive him....I don't know what to say....They say he died of cardiac arrest but I hate to say this but I really do suspect foul play on the doctor's part. He's been a very suspicious character which reminds me of Kanye West's mom who had died of complications from a surgery and the doctor was said to not have a license for practice I think I don't remember...I don't want to hear that Michael Jackson death was intentional but I think for now he may have been taken too soon by complications....for now I'll believe that...

I feel so upset right now and one comment just made me want to snap and it was festering inside of me until now. One anchor, I'm not sure which one, had said that Michael Jackson had finally achieved something in death that he wasn't able to when he was living....he finally had his comeback. Okay, I paraphrased the phrase so it may have sounded a lot harsher me saying it so based judgement on my quote but yeah I just found that to be a little insulting...Granted that MJ has encountered a lot of problems throughout his career but he never lost popularity it's just that people always want to pay attention to the bad publicity like his trials, his eccentric behavior and all that...I bet some of you always listened to his songs but as soon as you saw him in court for a charge of child molestation you threw all your MJ stuff away because you didn't have the guts to keep on liking him even after the acquittals because you were afraid of getting weird looks from people who don't know better...or some of you never even heard one song of his but you saw his all over the news when he address the world of what was done to him to find something to make that verdict guilty and you just judge without learning your fuckin' facts...I became a fan back in 2001 it'll be 8 years now but when I saw his 30th Anniversary Concert I was awestruck this man was so amazing so afterwards I went out and bought every CD and saved every story that mentioned his name. Now, I've calmed down a bit and I admit at one point I lost faith in MJ when the trial happened and I regretted every losing faith in him every since. But yeah, he was never bad just people out there make him appear to be...In fact, I hate to say it but in a way I think in some way we may be responsible for his demise....Most of us made him out to be a monster when all he every wanted in life was just to be a normal being like us....

I end my post here....that's my song and I take my bow....I leave you with one of my all time favorite Michael Jackson song: Man in the Mirror...

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV~



~Michael Jackson's Man in the Mirror~

Track 19: Gone Too Soon

It's Headphones coming at you with an early morning edition blog which is a huge rarity....

I spent the night watching some of Michael's old videos they were playing as well as listening to all his CDs throughout the night and I still couldn't grasp the fact that he is in fact gone...he's passed away...until I heard "You Are Not Alone" about 30 seconds into the song I broke down...I kept picturing him which made me keep on denying that he's gone but I know he's forever gone...The legend has died....

So, I awoke around 7:08 which is very rare for me because I'm usually in bed by three up by noon and with a monster headache from finally spilling tears after holding on such a bravado....I was just hoping, waiting, wishing, wanting so much that someone would just burst into my room and just scream "HE'S ALIVE!!! MJ IS ALIVE!! But I heard nothing but silence and it hit me that he's really gone...

He's leaving behind a huge legacy that nobody will ever touch...they cover every aspect of his life from the music to the trials to the eccentricities but I'll always remember him for his 30th Anniversary concert where I had become a huge fan...I sat there and bawled like a baby just watching him and you realize that this man is on a whole 'nother level. He's only one of few that is able to gauge that kind of reaction...I'm grief stricken that I will never get to meet the man who has become one of my idols or see him perform live but he will always live on in my memories for as long as I have his CDs, his songs in my iPod, and his videos he will never be forgotten and he will never be silent...The King of Pop may have died at the age of fifty and is no longer with us physically but he will always live on in the hearts of countless fans dancing and moonwalking to the beats of those hearts ^_^. This is not a time of mourning but a time of celebration for he lives on as an icon of music that will never EVER be forgotten...

I know I keep talking about him but as a fanatic fan I was I could never help but mention him in daily conversation lol which helps with the pain but also keeps the memory alive. Michael Jackson is finally free of all stress, pain, and despair and now you may finally have peace for there are no paparazzi up in heaven...

Aside from Michael, I'm kinda spacing out I'm still tried but I wanna give my condolences to Farrah Fawcett's family and Ryan O'Neil. She was a very strong woman and went down fighting. BIG UPs to her...She'll never be forgotten...

As well, condolences go out to the families of the 9 who died in the worst DC Metro accident. The operator of the train, 42 year old Jeanice McMillan had down everything in her power to try and stop the train from crashing but unfortunately her life was cut short so all props go to her for pulling her life before others...Very tragic indeed....

This concludes this blog...keep those who have passed these past few week as well in 2009 in your mind and hearts and only remember them with fond memories.....So I end my song here and take my bow...

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLUV~


Michael Jackson performing "You Are Not Alone" from his multi-platinum album HIStory - Past, Present and Future, Book I."