Track 31: Food For Headphones' Brain...Oh How Depression Looms...

So...it's been four months going on five months since we've lost Michael and I feel I'm recovering but I have my days where I'm just a walking shell...I don't talk unless spoken to and basically just keep to myself. All I ask...why him of all people? I'm happy yes....but that's what they want to see but it's not what I feel...So, I have this reoccurring dream/thought that eating away at my mind and as I write about it...it brings me to tears. So, when I go through my days there ain't no sunshine when Michael is gone and even when the sun is shining at it's brightest it's still dark in my eyes.

Anyways, in my thoughts I'm walking through a cemetery...graves are lining my paths it's foggy and there's a slight mist. Why do I have to keep seeing this place? You brought me here why? Just to show me what will never be? I come upon the first grave and there is a girl who is 15 sitting there sobbing for her lost. I kneel beside her and we strike up a conversation. 'It's not fair...why did God have to take my uncle of all people?' She continues to cry out and I offer my an answer. Sometimes when a person completes their mission....they're called back to God. The girl looks at me with her tear stained face...'What about when their lives are cut short by the hands of another...someone who he thought was his brother? The real life Cain & Abel. She goes silent and I get up and start walking again then I hear. He was a man...who had once knew nothing but crime until one day he broke the silence with the sounds of chains at his mother's funeral before he's goes off to prison. Afterwards, he becomes a pastor and preaches the word of God. He wasn't even given a chance to fight to survive. If he wasn't even given a chance then how can I have faith in God again. With that she's gone. The date was April 11, 2006...

I continue along the path until I come upon another grave. This time there was another girl who was 18 at the grave. This time she's wearing a uniform...a police uniform with no emotion on her face. She stands there like a soldier at attention. She hears me and acknowledges me and nothing more. I stand next to her and strike up a conversation. 'This man...died in the line of duty and yet no recognition...' But he was a man who died for protecting those who couldn't protect themselves and doing what he loved. 'Yes, he did but his death was overshadowed by the death of his suspected killer by the supposed hands of his own.' I felt crushed because this man also acted as a mentor towards me and a few others whom we're so close to. I broke the news to my closest friend who had no way of finding out so I thought it was best to tell him. He was the closest to him but he's wasn't here to pay proper respect to his mentor. I attended his funeral not just for myself but for him as well. But he brought together a community who honored and were touched by his heroics. She looked at me with a small smile and for that I thank him. She hands me something and walks off but now without saying 'Rest In Peace Sergeant' and with that she was gone. I look at my hand and see a police officer's sergeant chevrons. The date was June 27, 2008.

I continue walking until I come upon one final grave site until I'm finally able to exit. At this site sits a little girl no older than 10 clawing at the dirt with tears falling fast and freely and some small dirt smudges on her small face. 'YOU CAN'T BE GONE!!' she screams repeatedly. I run to her and grad her and try to console her. She grabs at my shirt and continues to sob loudly trying to figure why she lost him. 'YOU SHOULD STILL BE HERE!!' For this I have no words and in fact I felt I've lost my voice. I just continue to listen to the girl sob by now she's down to a quiet sob as she returns to her spot. 'You even sang it in your song...whisper three words and I'll come running......She barely whispers 'Michael, come back. I still don't speak...I just walk to the girl, kneel down and hold her as she keeps sobbing....the day was June 25, 2009.

These three girls are myself...at the ages I've lost the people I loved and respected most. The one who speaks to them is also myself representing those who try to console me with their hollow words...words that seem so general now. With each I was able to help I was able to move on until I was able to leave the cemetery. But when I stopped at the ten year child I felt loss...I was 10 going on 11 when I became a fan of MJ and when I found at he died I listened to 'You Are Not Alone' and that opened the wounds and I reverted to my 10 year old self who was that hardcore fan. He died when I was 18 and turned 19 on his three month anniversary. I was able to recover from losing my uncle and my mentor but who can console me after losing MJ...I take each day with one step and hopefully I will think of those three with nothing more than a smile. I may grieve more for MJ but I don't love my uncle any less and I respect my mentor so much more for being willing to give his life up. Is there really such a thing as a time limit on the grieving process...

Love & Peace

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 30: We'll Be Moonwalkin'

How ya be my lovely Blogger?

'Tis I, your bad-ass...random-ass....soaked ass Headphones, here to bring one of my random rambling of a blog because frankly I ain't got better shit to do then just sit here on the computer and look at videos of Michael Jackson's old performances which are still great today, um....cats fighting then watching another vomit, turtles having sex which is fuckin' hilarious by the way (This is what I do while you're at work lol and yes I did actually watched these videos). So let's get this shit crackin' SHALL WE?!

First off, I'm not in a good mood because I'm still pissed at the 86 Metro bus for straight leaving my ass and duex it's very cold, deary and wet outside cause it's raining and it's October and it's Fall but it feels like Winter. So cold and rain and me do not mix well today....no no no...but the silver lining in all this inanity of it all is that I finally got my little fangirlish hands on Michael Jackson's one and only 1988 auto-biography 'Moonwalk' which was re released on Tuesday in a special 2009 edition which feature a new foreword by founder of Motown Records Berry Gordy. I almost thought I wouldn't have been able to get it because I thought I'd be a nickel short of the price but thankfully my giftcard my mom gave me for my birthday (THANKS MOM YOU JUST BOUGHT ME $100 WORTH OF MJ BOOKS LMAO) had enough to cover the change and I had enough to cover the remaining amount so yes I am proud owner of said book lol...

Now, as of right now I'm currently killing time in my school's computer lab because frankly I'm in no mood to walk through the rain and wait for a bus so I'll take a later one because this is how much I love my blog...so I thought I should update it once in a while I mean just because Miss Cougar can go on hiatus doesn't this spic should lol j/k j/k j/k....I just win I had money for food ;_; lol....Although this is perfect weather to be listening to 'Stranger in Moscow' -le sigh-

Anyways, I want to write that I found out that this guy who worked at my mom's job had died from I think a rare form of Lupus so condolences to his family. This guy was short little Asian man like half my height (not being racial speaking the truth) and he was just plain adorable lol and I can't believe he's gone I mean I was sad when he quit but to hear he died is just one big plain ouch. Also Al Martino from The Godfather who sings "Speak Softly" which is one of my favorite song died two days ago at the ripe old age of 82 so Al you'll be missed by this chick....

This brings me to what's been buggin' me these past weeks even months. Why can't a person just die in peace overall...I'm not wishing death on anybody I'm posing a rhetorical question. But I mean no matter what the circumstances are surrounding their death whether it be suicide, cancer, drug O.D., or whatever...can't they just pass on and be done with...For the pass 3-4 months I felt as though I haven't been able to properly mourn MJ's death because the media is constantly talking about it and sometimes without fair views...Instead of just being sad I keep getting angry because of the media's way of reporting on anything Michael it then reaches the fans and in turn the fans go crazy with angry and sometimes I feel some of them are blind to the reality of it all...People are coming out of the woodwork releasing books on MJ and some are being labeled traitors and money making scumbags, the upcoming "This Is It" is being boycotted by some being labeled as a way to make money of his name, conspiracy after conspiracy as to what really killed MJ, and so on and so forth...

Here's my take on this whole situation

On MJ-related literature: Half of these people will write anything that can keep the readers attention and some (not all) will say they did research, they investigated, they interviewed said witnesses. Case & Point, Ian Halperin wrote a book that was released a week or so after Michael had passed and it made some very huge claims such as Michael was gay and used women as a cover, the kids aren't really his, he used hard-core drugs, and of course no book on MJ is ever completed without the infamous molestation trials. I was like some a person downright said I WILL NOT BUY THIS BOOK!! NO WAY IT IS PURE BULLSHIT!! I WON'T GIVE A DIME TO THIS MAN!! But of course I relented and got the book and I felt guilty for reading this book but as I read through it I realized something...I was right this book was pure bullshit lol...but the point is that I read a book that had huge claim but nothing really solid to back it up and here's my message. A person can write a horrible book but it is up to you as the reader to formulate your own conclusion. Going into a book you need to make sure that you read any book about MJ with an open mind because no matter what they throw at you...even if it sounds plausible you don't believe it unless you hear it from the man himself and now that he's gone we'll never some of the answers but the authors sure as hell can try to and answer...

Making Money Off of MJ's Name: Do some people realized that when you buy MJ merchandise that has been approved by the estate that some of the money goes to HIS estate which means to HIS kids. So to boycott the "This Is It" or any other product is just non-sense because you'll actually be denying the estate money which turn no money for his kids or for the charities. And for what some self-satisfying feeling that you didn't allow the corporates to sway you into buying their money making products because they're exploiting MJ's name...I'm not defending the corporates and I'm not using the kids to ensue guilt I'm merely just being realistic. This is like a double edge sword if a person releases anything of MJ we don't know what they'll gain out of it they're labeled a 'money making scumbags' but nothing is released no money goes to the estate. I admit I'm very disappointed in SONY for how they're treating MJ's music and I would love to see MJ's fan take that eyesore down to the ground.

Conspiracy: We can all hope and pray and do dark magic and give anything to have MJ back alive but unfortunately fate is a cruel bitch. As we all know his death was labeled a homicide and the primary target of focus is Dr. Conrad Murray who was with him the day he died. To me that is who I blame for MJ's death...he was there in that room and he was the one who stuck the drip in his arm and he is the one I want punished. But I hear these people giving us elaborate conspiracies that involved people that we're out to lay there hands on MJ's money and they actually believed this like it's the holy word and label people who want to deny it or challenge it as not being a true fan. Just because I don't want to believe does not give you the right to challenge me on whether I am a true fan or not because they is no ten commandments to follow to make you a so call true fan. I loved MJ with all my heart but I am a person who wants facts and hard evidence. Show me a video or audio of these people actually talking about killing MJ but it is not a crime just to say I WANT TO KILL MICHAEL JACKSON! If there is evidence of a plot to kill him then it is labeled a crime. All these conspiracies are no better than if you had written something for the tabloids and sold it for millions.

I've just had enough with all the questions about his death. I want him to be at peace, I want his children to be able to look at their father the way they always seen him, I want him to be remembered for being the greatest star in the world. Unfortunately with the way things are today...it's be a while before I'll be able to think of you Michael and just smile and laugh...

Well, I'm done with my ranting and again this is my take on the issues and my opinions which I am entitled to and should not be considered as me trying to pass off as facts. Some of what I say could be wrong. I'm sorry to be this way lol must be the weather but anyways I've finished in the nick of time since I have to go and I managed to finished a blog in the allotted time OMG I'm so proud lol. So, now I'm off to go home, get warm and make some soup for me to enjoy while I read my books. I'll end my song here and take my bow...so until next time my loves...Farewell, so long, adios, adieu, sayonara.....

Love & Peace
~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 29: Oh The Randomosity of Halloween!

*staring at profile pic of MJ goodness*OH! I didn't see y'all there....What is good my lovely Blogger! 'Tis I, Headphones, back again double the random, double the Spanish (for your info books, I'm Mexican-American just a little fun fact for ya), double the spaziness. I'm here to bring you joy and laughter because frankly I ain't got nothing to complain about really.....yet....Alright so anyways I'm bouncing around and going Off The Wall and really I have no clue I dunno guess it must be the Life cereal (MMM CINNAMON GOODINESS) but these past days were good.

Saturday, I went to the movies with my dad to see that Michael Moore Documentary Capitalism: A Love Story. It actually wasn't that bad...it was eye-opening but I kept getting lost lol and for any Family Guy fans in here it's like this....While watching the movie I kept hearing people laugh at some of the references Michael Moore had made and I thought "this is just like the season primere episode of Family Guy when Brian and Stewie are stuck in that Washington Post comic and Brian is the only one laughing at it....Stewie has it right....S.....T....F....U! lolSo anyways afterwards we went SHOPPING!!! at the grocery store bleh! Not fun....what is fun is going to the mall down the road which is housed to Books-A-Million and f.y.e (For the some who don't know these place it's like a low scale version of Borders or Barnes & Noble or any shop that is a primary bookstore lol and f.y.e is like a low scale Best Buy lol). So freshly strapped with a gift card to the bookstore I set foot into it and set off to find me some MJ....which I did find....I managed to pick me up the Hardcover Versions of the LIFE and PEOPLE tribute magazines to MJ which is awesome and I found a really nice paperback tribute by Whitman it's called MICHAEL JACKSON: The World Says Good-Bye To The King of Pop and it's basically a book of quotes from all the celebrities in the music industry as well as a few fans from all over the world....and it has some beautiful pictures too...last but not least I also found the book by Bruce Swedien "In The Studio with Michael Jackson which I can't wait to read after I've finish Randy T.'s book. So after I make the purchased the woman ringing me up state of course the obvious....you must be a Michael Jackson fan which of course I said yeah that's me...lol and she was really cool she told me about the new book by the Rhabbi and how that may be the only book that isn't out to trash MJ's image unlike others....like I told her about the Unmasked book and she was like "when I saw I was like no...." then of course the molestation cases came up and she stated that she was ashamed of the families for taking the money because if she was the parent and he DID do it she'd want to see him behind bars. I agreed with her...don't scold her because she's entitled to her own opinion and like her if our kids were molested we'd want the offender behind bars even if he is famous....we can't let fame blind justice.....but that's all I got to say really....

Getting back to the title of this blog...I'm on a mission to create MJ's Smooth Criminal outfit for Halloween but I've decided to turn it into something new so I'm taking two of my favorite performances which are Smooth Criminal and Dengerous and combining them into one....so now instead of traditional blue/white I'll be black and red....so today I went shopping after class since I wanted to exchange my new military jacket for a bigger looser size and now I'm in heaven which I hope I can wear to see This Is It lol. Then, off to Payless Shoes where I bought BOOTS (sorry...boots make me squee) and on the plus these boots look almost like loafers and are a dream to moonwalk in ....I bought a new tribute shirt but unfortunately need to exchange that so two out of three ain't bad lolSo as of right now I'm happy because I've managed to complete more of my mission and since this costume idea it'll be a snap *snap* (I just hope people don't condem me for remixing a classic hm) as of right now I need a red shirt, red socks, suspenders, and spats...and with that I've finished with my randomosity and I'll leave you with you mind in a puddle...Until then....

Love & Peace

~HeadphonesLuV~

*cue the Thriller laugh*

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Track 28: New Look For The Blog & Birthday Run Down

What it do lovely Blogger? 'Tis I, Headphones, coming at your with my 27th blog which is kinda of a shocker since the most I've ever blog was like 12 so yeah...I must really like this place....so let's get to business....SHALL WE?!

So anyways as you may have noticed (well obviously lol) I have changed up my blog with a new header and new colors of blues and blacks to match the theme of the new header which features the late King of Pop Michael Jackson from the "They Don't Care About Us". It's one of my favorite song of MJ's from the HIStory album. The song really fits to how I feel about today's society overall from the government to the future of today's children. The quote is from Scream which is another song I love and it also show my stand on today's society. But anyways I made the background as a late tribute to Michael Jackson. So Michael this blog is dedicated to you....

Speaking of tribute, Michael's third month anniversary since his passing just so happened to fall on my birthday September 25. Yes, I have turned the big 19 and I must say I felt somewhat bittersweet since that morning I had my Computer Info System class and that was just plain super boring so I just couldn't wait for that class to end so I can just get home and relax and fall asleep to MJ which I did until I had to go to the eye doctor....not cool.....

So I did go to the doctor and stayed there for like 4 hours but up side of it I got some new glasses (yes I'm a nerdy nerd nerd lol) and got my old pair fixed so I got two working pairs....Plus, all day long I've gotten Happy Birthday texts and looked on my Facebook and saw loads of them so just wanna say a big thanks to all those who took the time out to wish a happy birthday lol. Afterwards, my bro took me out to eat but not without being in a car blasting nothing but Michael Jackson music because being the brother that he is he knows that I am a huge Michael Jackson fan YO! It's a great Japanese place called Sakura's and that place is awesome....entertaining and great food.....and can't end a meal without embarrassing the birthday girl by getting a piece of awesome cheesecake NOM NOM NOM!! Then I got home to catch what I could on the Dateline Special on MJ's Secret Tapes and then I went to the kitchen and realized something wasn't right and before I could run away I was caught and embarrassed again with another cheesecake with a printed picture of MJ (I had stated that if I could I'd want a cake with a picture of MJ on it) my bro called the cake a bootleg MJ cake so I could not help but feeling embarrassed and laughing. Because present to come aside from the dinner was my mom's...She gave me this beautiful coffee book of Michael Jackson chronicling his life and success :) to go with my Barack Obama book.....two men who have made History....

Next day Saturday I went out to breakfast with my mom and her two friends who happen to be sisters and my mom told the waitress that it was my birthday and I was like NOO!!! not again lol....but the waitress was like exasperated like "You were supposed to tell me when I was in the side kitchen so she wouldn't hear and before the meal" she was nice about it though she told me Happy Birthday and I was glad nothing happened...or so I thought....I was again embarrassed for the third time when the staff present me with a Birthday Sundae but it was delicious no less lol silly waitress but she was cool no less....That was it and I gotta say even though I didn't get a lot I was happy for once lol...

That's it for now....just wanted to share my birthday with y'all and I'll be back to blogging about the going ons and my take on everything so far....so until then....

Peace & Love

~HeadphonesLuV808~

Track 27: GET UP! To the VMAs

WHOO!!! WHAT IS GOOD BLOGGER?! It is I, Headphones, bringing you a post on the stuff that has got you talking and I'm gonna talk about what had occurred last night on the tube. Yes you know it and you love it (....yeah right?) YES! I'm talking about the Video Music Awards or VMAs so let us begin with the good, the bad, and the just plain dumb occurrences so let us begin SHALL WE?!


Alright, so Sunday night at 9PM was the showing of the VMAs hosted by Russel Brand and I gotta say OVERALL it was a good show but some of it....ummm....meh....



I'm here to bring you a blog about what I saw at the VMAs and I liked what I saw but I hate what's happening now.....It didn't help that the show starting off with Madonna giving a speech about MJ because I really didn't want to cry but when I heard her talk I agreed with her...We had abandoned at least I felt I did....when the 2005 molestation trial occurred I was so disappointed in Michael and I just said why did you let this happen again. I didn't say he was guilty but I didn't show my support for his innocence. But when his acquittal came I prayed....prayed he'd be cleared that way he can just get on with his life. Now as I write this and think about Madonna's speech my vision's blurring from tears rising. I'm so sorry Michael that I lost faith in you....Madonna's speech showed us the truth about Michael and that yes he was human but DAMMIT HE WAS A KING!! I thank you Madonna for showing people that Michael was more then a legend....he was a man....Probably the first time I actually agree with Madonna...of course it's never complete with me to find something to bitch about (severely bad habit I need to work on) but on some parts I felt that she was looking for more sympathy for herself and talking about MJ as if those two were the same....I mean she could've talked about him as a whole to us not just comparing each other....but that's just me and yes I cried....a lot....

I admit I'm somewhat disappointed with Janet's performance I mean don't get me wrong it was really great to me but it was just too short. But then again she is hurting and to perform a song without your brother being there physically I wouldn't know how to handle that so for that Janet I commend your strength. So by far her tribute may be the most real and best to her brother. When I watched her I thought she sounded rough but it was still great because this song was directed towards anybody who wants to **** with this ***** (no insult :P) or her big brother. She had messed up on one part of her choreography but to me it didn't matter she was overall good. I mean her slip up is minimal compared to the failtacular lean one of the supposed best dancer did at the end of the Smooth Criminal dance....I don't care what reason he gives he screwed up one of MJ greatest creation aside from the Moonwalk but then again he didn't invented that so mmhm. In a way now that he's gone he can't defend himself anymore so Janet will keep this song alive with her....at the end she looked almost angry but whatever she was feeling or thinking she was entitled to it. Thank you Janet for your dedication to Michael.

But all this...Madonna's heartfelt speech, Janet's performance for her brother, and MJ's This Is It trailer were overshadowed by Kanye West and a case of a douchebaggery...Look, I love Kanye West's music but sometimes I don't approve of his behavior and the VMAs are the prime example. I wanted Beyonce to win but instead Taylor Swift won the award for "Best Female Video" I guess...which I wasn't really bothered I was just like hey she won something she didn't expected good for her. Then Kanye had to go at it and at first I thought he was just playing like he usually pokes fun at his diva like attitude but then I really saw it. I was like NO DAMMIT KANYE DON'T MAKE YOURSELF LOOK STUPID!! Too late....he got booed throughout the night, he was kicked out, and his act took away from the real reason...a tribute to MJ - LOVE EACH OTHER!! RESPECT EACH OTHER!! What would Michael think if he saw that? Now every musician is out for his head....Look I'm gonna clear something up Kanye West never claimed he was the new 'King of Pop' and that an interview that was being passed around was a made up interview filled with misleading quotes. I know many don't see it but Kanye has too much respect to Michael to make those kind of claims especially since without Michael there would not be half the musician we have today.Now I agree that what Kanye did was a very messed up thing to do especially since this was Taylor Swift's first VMA award. I don't listen to her music and I actually enjoyed her performance it was very creative I give her that. But that doesn't give the right tp go up on stage and take her microphone and say what Kanye said. SHAME ON YOU KNAYE!I have a message to all the musicians: GROW THE **** UP!! Yes it was wrong what Kanye did by taking away from Taylor but there is no need for you and Taylor Swift fans to go on your little Twitter pages stating things like "Kanye you're a piece of ****" or "Kanye should be banned from the radio" or "KANYE SHOULD DIE!!". Saying **** like that only goes to annoy us who don't take things so literal. Yes, Kanye was the douchebag of the night. But Kanye had an opinion. He is entitled to an opinion. He should've keep that opinion to himself. He was kicked out of the show. He later apologized to Taylor and her mom. Beyonce was the bigger person and allowed Taylor to finished her speech. Plus Taylor is a big girl she can fend for herself so I don't know why people are treating her like this child. She's ****in' 19 years old so dammit all y'all need to chill the **** out with the manhunt threats.This is something that will disappear in less than a week....if not I really don't care because whether y'all diss me I still like Kanye West. And Taylor Swift congratulations on our first VMA awards...This night was for you MJ but unfortunately it was overshadowed by pure childish antics and overreacting musicians...

But aside from Kanye's douchebaggery, I was really looking forward to Lady Gaga's performance and she did not disappoint...OH I WANNA MARRY YOU LADY GAGA!!! Her performance was so great and shocking as hell but I loved it anyway because I like originality...Another performance was Pink's...hers was even better because she did it all while thirty feet in the friggin' air....I have no other words....Anyways to sum it up....the VMAs were dope but Kanye just ruined it for me because now all I hear is Kanye and Taylor...I'm sick of it....

Anyways until next time y'all I take my bow so I'll see y'all bitches later....I know this post is late as hell but I don't give a damn I have a life to live but I still make time for you Blogger so it's all good...

~HeadphonesLuV~

Track 26: Remember The Time

Hello lovely Blogger....how I miss thee? What is good? It is I, your absolutely distraught Headphones, coming at you with my feelings like every other blogger who hates themselves (just kidding about that last part)

As we all know....two months ago we lost our great entertainer....the legend....The King of Pop...y'all know him as Michael Jackson....Throughout these two months we heard nothing again about Michael Jackson as a person....a son, a brother, a father, a friend since his July 7th memorial at the Staples Center. All we ever here is the cocktail of drugs found in his body, his death being ruled homicide, Dr. Conrad Murray at the center of the whole entire investigation, money problems....all of it and unfortunately it may never go away.

But yesterday, September 3rd all that was pushed aside when Michael was finally laid to rest at Forest Lawn Memorial Park in Glendale, California. I watched the coverage of it up until the hearse with his coffin pulled up into the service when the Live Pool Feed (*basically this a camera feed that was set up for the media outlet that they all had to share) cut to an end just before it began. The service was nothing like what the family had said but it was still just as touching. It was intimate but had over 200 people in attendance but all close personal friends and family (he had a huge family....), there were actual cameras there and it was stated that this footage may be used in an upcoming Jackson's reality show or the This Is It movie coming soon to a theater near you but still no confirmation.

Aside from all the technical stuff because I really don't want to repeat it because all I want as a fan is some closure I couldn't stop crying yesterday. But thankfully he was not buried on his birthday because that was a time for celebration of his LIFE and burying him would've have just been too somber. I was in California the week of his birthday and on that day I went to visit my uncle who had passed 3 years ago and the emotions of his birthday and losing my uncle was so much for to not shed tears. I tried hard to be happy for you Michael and Uncle but it still so hard to grip the fact that we lost you. He's finally buried in privacy and maybe now he can rest in peace away from the media madhouse. I'm still shock and numb because it's like I believe that he's not dead but every time I hear his name it's like...I get so excited inside but it dawns on me that he's really dead....At one point I wanted to know how he was going to look one final time actually see him. But now I don't think I could handle seeing him sleeping in his last bed forever if they actually caught it. It's just too hard...but finally Michael you can sleep....and we'll miss you always but you'll never be silent...We love you MJ....

Sleep Well Michael

Rest In Peace

~HeadphonesLuV808~

Making Like Jesus ad BRBing!!

What's doing Blogger It is I our all loving Headphones back from the dead and here to bring you a small update....

Okay so off the track I just want to wish MJ a belated Happy 51st birthday. I'll do a much more in-depth blog when I'm back at my own computer that doesn't have a shitty keyboard. Also reasons why I haven't been updating despite the shitloads to talk about with news of more deaths of the stars and so many updates in MJ's investigations than I can keep track of is because I haven't been up to writing on my blogs because I've been spending my time in deep thoughts late at night when I don't sleep (which will probably have to stop soon since I'll be returning to school which is just so criminal). I plan on documenting these thoughts and I'll share them when I feel I can and will. So another reason is that right now I haven't told many but I'm in good ole California and I'll be returning soon so until then I'll see y'all real soon.....

Peace & Love

HeadphonesLuV808